So some recent conversations with my husbands – he admits that he’s a hypocrite. He kind of alludes that he’s not that great.
So we’ll have an intellectual/religious conversation. He goes to pray or watch soccer videos. He comes back down and then acts so incredibly cold.
And then he implies that it doesn’t bother me. He actually doesn’t think it bothers me. He thinks that I’m ok with it. He doesn’t remember all the trying and failing. Again and again.
Sometimes I feel like I’m dealing with two different people. Its Mind boggling.
to think that it doesn’t bother me. I still randomly cry over it.
Sometimes I laugh over it. Sometimes I’m bitter and jaded. Sometimes the pain gets so much I feel like drowning and choking on my blood (emotionally, obviously).
I don’t know if he actually things this or just tells himself this.
I wonder if lots of refuser/cheaters all do this? Say the wife is ok with it, lie to live with it better?